Unexpected…

Can you feel lost in your calling?

When it’s just beginning of course, yes. But when you have been called, you have been called.

Looking back at your life there were definitely times of uncertainty, learning, becoming developed into your calling and other times in your life where you may of just seemed okay with staying dormant right where you are at. Both you may have even felt lost.

So in the beginning of your call and feeling lost everything is new exciting, terrifying, out of comfort and for some of us we still go and Obey God kicking and screaming, trying to pull away and try to continually say no, still while saying yes, (I know that is contradicting but when God has a purpose for you, your lost cause you want to but out of your comfort zone you don't and then you do because you manage to realize its not about you cause its about Him and you need to get out of the way). What happens though when your put on the spot and your really unsure if you should step out in faith or not and if what you do is really the Lords request of you or not??

Well today this happened to me… I went to visit a lady from church, a beautifully kept by the Lord Lady, gifted in music and funny, sweet, kind, loving and so dear to my heart. I couldn’t find her at her room so I went around the senior home where she lived, not at the court yard, nor the hall where she played the organ, finally found her waiting to hear a sermon from a local church in the area. When we exchanged salutations and I sat close by her, I joked about sticking out like a sore thumb, all chairs were around the outside of the room and a few chairs and tables were in the middle of the room so I had no choice but to sit standing out! As we waited and waited no one came, I finally went to check if any one was coming and the lady at the front desk said no, apparently not. I told her the people waiting thought I was there to lead the service but I informed I was there to visit a sweet friend. She asked if I could sing hymns and what church I went to, I told her I knew some hymns yes, and managed to say God was stretching me to start speaking, then she said well if Gods calling you to do something you better, go and do it. Easy for her to say she was behind the desk, I had to speak and was not exactly prepared if you know what I mean. We sang hymns most of them I had never heard before or even sang before but followed in as best as I could, afterward I felt it would be best to share in some scripture since it was the reason they were there in the first place. Totally out of my comfort zone... Here we go...

I prayed the very same prayer, I prayed to speak and share a word with a complete stranger and then prayed once at a Youth night, Lord please use my hands and feet they are yours, I thank you Lord for the anointing you have placed on my life, Lord help me to step aside so you can use me as your vessel to send the message to your people that you want them to hear, In Jesus name, Amen.

Then I said I will read from Psalms 27, and everything else became a blur, I remember reading the scripture and not messing up any words, so that was good then only remember talking about prayers, not being answered this side of heaven and that its okay, kind of things and then I remember, talking about since God is our High King and Almighty that we should leave things up to him and then while we wait for the lord we can have all things in our lives fulfilled only by him and we will stand in confidence to trust him and wait for Him. (I don’t even totally know…) But what I do know is this, I am not going to please everybody, God told me Himself, but I am pushing past that because I am here to carry out what He asks of me, I want to please God. He’s the one who called me, and He’s the one we all need to listen to, obey and please only.

When God has called you up to start your purpose that He has been preparing, developing and growing you to do, and you still feel lost don’t allow feelings to be your guide. Please the Lord. Block out the uncertainty, block out the unsure, get your toes in the water so God can part the sea and the enemies coming up behind you will be destroyed, those enemies are; the doubt, should I - shouldn’t I, not good enough, you can’t do this cause you’re not able and on and on… Don’t get caught up in all that, cause you will become lost, when you don’t obey the Lord you’ll miss out on blessings and those who God appointed to hear that message will to. Gods got this all worked out already, Gods got you.

When you share a message and you’re not sure how people took it, and you can’t recall what you even said.

2 Things...

#1 It doesn’t matter what people think. You surrendered yourself for Gods Will and became a vessel for Him to share a message through you, He wants spoken.

#2 When you can’t recall all the things you said, Gods anointing on you was so powerful it wasn’t about YOU, so you did your job and let God do His.

Actually 3 things…

God called you not the people.

It will be more difficult to please everyone than to follow God and obey when you are uncomfortable, because honestly you will eventually find comfort in Him while in the place of your uncomfortable.

Psalm 27:4 NIV. One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty if the Lord and to seek him in his temple.

Psalm 13&14 NIV. 13 I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. 14 Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

Galatians 1:10 NIV. Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.