I pray this all makes sense writing in a depressed state is difficult and as frustrated as I am I fully trust and believe my Heavenly Father, as I work this all out I hope there is encouragement in here somewhere, pray for me, as I will continually be praying for all of you too.
A slipknot will loosen when pulled one way, but in another way when pulled it will tighten.
In some ways I’ve pulled on the slipknot in my life the wrong way and during other times pulled on it the right way, with this being said the slipknot represents which direction we will go with the Lord tighter with Him or in another direction and our bond will loosen because of our decision.
I chose to use the slipknot because of its dual purpose to loosen or tighten, you decide.
This verse reminds us to anchor ourselves close to our Father. Hebrews 6:19 &20 MSG. We who have run for our very lives to God have every reason to grab the promised hope with both hands and never let go. It’s an unbreakable spiritual lifeline, reaching past all appearances right to the very presence of God where Jesus, running on ahead of us, has taken up his permanent post as high priest for us, in the order of Melchizedek.
I love that we have someone to look up to and not just any somebody Jesus Himself prepared the way for us to walk and how to navigate every moment along the way, I definitely cannot do life without Him, as in this very moment I am tightening my slipknot tighter and tighter with every thought, worship lyric and step, fighting depression is not easy at all and I know He is carrying me through this and He is my healer so I will continue to remember the truth of who sets me free and who lives on the inside of me to give me power and authority to step on the snakes and scorpions of the enemy and I will not allow the exposed to the venom to continue to take my life cause when I plant me foot upon the serpent He will have no choice but to bow because in Jesus name I am protected and set free.
Luke 10:19 NIV. I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you. Thank You Lord Jesus, for the second part of this passage is very important. Luke 10:20 However, do not rejoice that the spirits submit to you, but rejoice that your names are written in heaven. This means more than a serpent bowing, don’t you think?
I take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ because during this time thoughts seem to be running wild in their own direction and I have no control over how I feel for the lack of certain chemicals in my body are depleted and the medication is not working in the positive way it should be.
2 Corinthians 10:5 NIV. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
As I continually renew my mind in the truths of Gods power and love I am free, and have abundant joy even in this state of depression I can be joyful but the moment that I give in to the lies of the enemy I am imprisoned by agreeing to be low, frustrated, angry, agitated, anxious and more negative. I have been here before many years ago so I know the signs what to look for and this time is different I don’t have my life falling apart around me but actually I am in a very great spot in life I have learned much and therefore am wise to know where my total source is to get me through it is a tough battle but when I lay it down completely at my Saviors feet it is no longer mine but His for I am unable to gain enough strength to fight this battles and win my strength is made perfect in my weakness and who better than to lead this battle than the Lord who gave me everything including His life so I could be free and properly healed by Him.
2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV. But he said to me “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
2 Chronicles 20:17 “You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem, DO not be afraid; do not be discouraged. GO out to face them tomorrow, and I the Lord will be with you.’”
In closing I feel like I may have babbled a little but when we are able to get things out and share we open up space and in this case the space I opened I replace with the Love of God tenderness to come and lift me I surrender myself to His Way and want to only walk His path, I thank You Lord for helping to equip me in how to navigate this terrain slipknot and all I tether ever closer I humble myself for Your Glory reigns. Lastly turn on worship music and praise Him in this storm, stand on His promises and reach out to others so they can pray for you.
Heavenly Father, I know we’ve been here before and like a stubborn daughter rejecting Your knowledge during the new territory I never knew before well I know now and realize I don’t always have everything figured out I found myself wandering the desert but as Song of Songs says I lean on my beloved and come out of the desert. I know the position I hold now and I am grateful for it forgive me for ever trying my own controlling desire to think I know best for myself and my life for I know nothing compared to You (even though I truly am not comparing myself to you for that I feel would be dishonoring Your stature, I repent yet again). I remove myself from the system of my life and place it in Your all-knowing hand and trust You, which You know I struggle with but I want all You have for my life. I pray this prayer for myself but anyone wanting to get on board with the greatness of God the way Jesus did remove yourself and follow in His ways give Him permission and become free and fully healed the only way you can be fully healed by His hand because He is the ALL we need and as we surrender to Him, trust Him we are in the perfect position to receive and His Glory is known. Lord I pray those needing a freedom can humble themselves enough to receive it, I pray Lord You are the only voice we hear that You are the only One we trust in and we can tighten our slipknots tighter and tighter and tighter to You there is no limit, I thank You for Your stamina to Heal me and others stuck in this rut of depression You heal all, Plead the Precious Blood of Jesus over everyone, in Jesus name, Amen.
